Finding a Word
I have been incessantly thinking about, dwelling on and nagging my self over my word choice for 2013. And guess what? I still don't have one. A word hasn't chosen me. I haven't chosen a word. Either way, here we are two weeks in to the new year and there isn't a word. Nada. I mean I know words and words have flooded my thoughts and all that but there hasn't been one ta-da moment if you can relate.
It began before 2012 came to a close. I assumed it would be simple. Just pop right into my head during quiet time or maybe jump off the pages as I read, linger after a sermon. Alas, no. When explaining this concept of a word of the year to Husband Jared he just shook his head. What was my word last year he asked. When I responded "listen", he said to what. Then I patiently took the time to explain to him what I was listening for and to and all that. Maybe I just didn't do such a great job adhering to my word or allowing it to inspire the way it was intended to. Must not have been quite the example I desired to be.
Despite that and my loss for a word for this year of 2013 I am searching. Still listening. Waiting. I thought I had one. I was almost certain it would be "love". But that just didn't stick. Didn't sink into my heart the way I had hoped. Now I'm left without a word. "Do" was the other choice. Then I thought of the Nike slogan, "Just do it", and I discarded that one altogether. Am I not listening closely enough? Not seeing what's staring me in the soul? Please help.
I need a word. And a meaningful one at that. One that throughout the long days and the joy-less afternoons and on my knees in prayer kind of nights that will continue to spur me on. A word that will offer a reminder of the intention of this year. Am I placing too much emphasis on this? Perhaps I am. Still, I want a word. Maybe if I close my eyes I will see it there, in the dark? Or possibly waiting with the sunrise in the morning? I know it will find me and as soon as it does I will share it with all of you.
It began before 2012 came to a close. I assumed it would be simple. Just pop right into my head during quiet time or maybe jump off the pages as I read, linger after a sermon. Alas, no. When explaining this concept of a word of the year to Husband Jared he just shook his head. What was my word last year he asked. When I responded "listen", he said to what. Then I patiently took the time to explain to him what I was listening for and to and all that. Maybe I just didn't do such a great job adhering to my word or allowing it to inspire the way it was intended to. Must not have been quite the example I desired to be.
Despite that and my loss for a word for this year of 2013 I am searching. Still listening. Waiting. I thought I had one. I was almost certain it would be "love". But that just didn't stick. Didn't sink into my heart the way I had hoped. Now I'm left without a word. "Do" was the other choice. Then I thought of the Nike slogan, "Just do it", and I discarded that one altogether. Am I not listening closely enough? Not seeing what's staring me in the soul? Please help.
I need a word. And a meaningful one at that. One that throughout the long days and the joy-less afternoons and on my knees in prayer kind of nights that will continue to spur me on. A word that will offer a reminder of the intention of this year. Am I placing too much emphasis on this? Perhaps I am. Still, I want a word. Maybe if I close my eyes I will see it there, in the dark? Or possibly waiting with the sunrise in the morning? I know it will find me and as soon as it does I will share it with all of you.
Grace!
ReplyDeleteHUMBLE! I think this word serves you and your family as I think of the many things you do for others and the gracious family that you are! Love and miss you, Auntie Robin xoxo
ReplyDeleteAuntie Robin, thank you. Your words do humble me, so very sweet. Miss you tons. xo
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